mess up..pfft
Tuesday, February 5 @ Tuesday, February 05, 2008
My thought are so mixed up.. pfft!! feeling fxckup! damn...
Early in the morning, i woke up, took a shower and be ready before 8a.m. Wrote an apology letter for cxjx and passed it to wanie. Then i went to college, went down to the basement for smoke break and Zana company me while i was waiting for Hadi and Zul. At the basement i was expecting to meet cxjx..hopefully that forgiven me..but NO!! still mad at me.. he came and i was expecting him to pass by but then he when to the other side. shoootssss!!! i wanted to cry because he was avoiding me. My heartbeat pounded hardly and i almost can't breath.. So, i just kept quite. i kept on thinking of him, i cant just relax myself of what happened.its my fault and im really sorry cxjx.
It was all started on sunday night when i phone wanie and looked for him. He was there with wanie at my apartment while i was at some wherelse.
on the phone
me: hello
cxjx: hello..
me: what are you doing there?
cxjx: playing games
me:oh..
me:bahapa kn main games sana, nada urg ingin ya sana uh (practically my tone was serious)
cxjx: o..(silents)
me: (silent)
cxjx: klah bye
me: o..yeah bye.
I was mad ya mau cakap saja..but then i didnt realise he would take my words seriously. i know it sounds harsh and yeah2 i get it..i get it that im wrong okay?? uh..so yesterday,i looked for him.. he totally dont want meet me. i was trying to make it up to him..saying sorry and all that. i did try my best but still useless. im so confused of what am i gonna do next?? OGD!!
oh well have to be patience.. *&^% x/
